As is sit her today and grab for yet another Christmas cookie, I thought it would make sense to share how I got here and why I chose this path into wellness and the reasons I just cannot ignore anymore.
My body has changed. My metabolism feels slower, and over time I’ve put on pounds that just won’t come off no matter how many “good plans” I create for myself. I know what works. I’ve taught it. I’ve lived it. Yet lately, my ability to stay consistent feels almost nonexistent. The motivation and drive that once came naturally to me feels so distant, and I keep asking myself, where did I go?
My sleep is restless. I wake up in the middle of the night or too early in the morning and I struggling to fall back asleep. During the day, I crave alone time more than connection and I miss my balance. I miss wanting to show up fully for the people I love and I fear my body is not recovering from day-to-day like it should and that can lead to a slew of health issues. I’m running on autopilot instead of intention.
My joints and muscles ache, like never before. I registered to run a 5K in March thinking my love for running will help me to stay committed, but now I am dealing with a hip issue that is causing all kinds of kinetic-chain reactions. All of the “getting older” aches and pains of which I have never allowed to become an excuse, because you know… age is just a number, are now feeling like real set-backs to my goals and plans.
And the most frustrating part? I know exactly what I need to do, but knowing and doing feels miles apart right now.
This journey isn’t about perfection or punishment. It’s about reconnecting with myself. Rebuilding trust. Creating structure when willpower is low. Choosing care over avoidance. And slowly, intentionally, becoming me again.
This is why I’m here. And this time, I’m staying!